Leaving with excitement,
staying in the present,
returning with love
on a full moon.

It’s April 1st.

After a solo trip to New Mexico,
I find clarity and comfort
in knowing more deeply
who I am
and what I need.

I need fresh-grown grass
under my bare feet
on a warm spring day.

I accept I may not have children of my own,
and that I may not want them anymore.

I believe my animals are my kiddos
and they fulfill my desire
to care wholeheartedly.

I am here to serve,
to strengthen my beliefs
and ensure everyone’s basic needs are met:
housed, clothed, fed.

I still feel deep love for J
and what we created.

I am grateful to be “home.”
and know now
that home is where the animals are.
They are my family.

My life is abundant,
having everything I need
and more.

Spring in Portland is the best.

And still,
I feel ready to leave
seeking a quieter, slower pace of life outside the city.

In MPLS,
I could leave every weekend
to visit my sister
and her family in LC.

In Oregon,
I was gifted weekends in Bend.

Now, without those connections,
I’ve been “stuck” in the city.

I understand that is a choice,
and also honor my intuition
and needs to leave.

Here I am.

It feels good to be back,
for now.