I will not allow this holiday season to be sad; even if I end up spending it alone. For one, I’m not alone — I have my animals. And for two, I’m living my dream.
Going to the mountain for Christmas, staying in a winter-wonderland A-frame in the woods, skiing, soaking in an outdoor hot tub, wandering the German market, fancying myself with whatever I want. I live freely and fully.
As I stroll to yoga this Saturday morning, I feel light, fresh, and proud. “I am cute, and I am a good human.” I repeat this to myself and smile.
In practice, I drop into a deep trance of meditation. I look inward and see myself pregnant — a cute, strong little belly, abs still shining through and protecting the womb, my body still able to practice yoga. I’m not there yet, but I know it’s coming. I see it. I trust my intuition. I trust my choices.
The best is coming. Truly.
When my favorite instructor asks, “How are you?” I reply, “I am trending upwards. I am mending.”
Words that roll freely off my lips without thought, flowing upward and outward, straight from my heart.
It is true. I am trending upwards. I am mending.
The Universe provides. Just when I think I can’t afford my yoga membership— minimal income from part-time work and wanting to gift my sweet Ezra weekly adventures— I am gifted three months of membership by the owner.
I am grateful. I love this space. I love this practice. This is what true community looks and feels like. This is what showing up looks and feels like.
I deeply trust Mother Universe. She has always provided for me.
I am living my dream. Truly.
Living in Oregon, following my heart, rescuing my kiddos, riding motorcycle, learning to surf, camping, exploring, serving the houseless, loving all, and living, dating, pursuing life with intention.
I look at all the things I’ve done, places I’ve been, people I’ve loved, and I can truly say I’m just following my heart.
As I glance at my live Christmas tree— something I always wanted as a young girl and now have— I see beauty and peace in my reflection, because I am living for me.
I am the best, I accept the best, and the best is coming to me now.
